Poetry – themakbook

Zwielicht

Zwielicht,
zwischen Tag und Nacht.
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Vor mir das Licht,
hinter mir die Dunkelheit.
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Ich blicke nach vorn,
und niemals zurück.
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Ich sehe die Zukunft,
doch fühle die Vergangenheit.
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Ich möchte Träume realisieren
und nicht Traumata aufarbeiten.
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Ich schreite vorwärts,
doch was hinter mir liegt zerrt mich zurück.
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Ich kann mich nicht bewegen,
denn meine Vergangenheit lässt mich nicht los.
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Ich will nach vorn blicken und nicht zurück,
Doch ich muss.
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Bevor ich dem Licht entgegen schreite,
muss ich mich der Dunkelheit stellen.
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Bevor ich meine Ziele verfolge,
muss ich meine Probleme lösen.

intimicy

i dont search for intimicy
in the form of two naked bodies
touching each other

for me,
intimacy is when
two naked souls entwine around each other

we plants

we are all like plants.
We will not grow
when you trample on us,
but you yell at us afterwards
why we are not growing

Fokus und Selbstliebe unserer Kinder

egal ob du es gut meinst oder nicht.
egal ob du nur das beste möchtest oder nicht.
egal ob du denkst dass du damit einen gefallen tun würdest oder dass es konstruktive kritik sei.
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wenn du deinem Kind nur erzählst was es nicht kann,
wird es immer nur wissen was es nicht kann
und immer nur glauben dass es nichts kann –
und niemals wissen was es kann
und niemals daran glauben dass es was kann.
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wenn du deinem Kind immer nur erzählst welche Fehler es begeht,
wird es immer nur wissen was an ihm schlecht ist
und immer nur daran glauben es schlecht sei –
und niemals wissen was an ihm gut ist,
und niemals an sich selbst glauben.

children who have to be adults

on some days, you no longer have the energy and the faith.
and on these days you need the warmth, energy, and the faith of a loving guardian.
but nobody will come.
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this is for the children who have always had to be adults.
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you could never take a break,
you always had to be strong.
because when you were weak,
nobody was there to help you up again.
but not today.
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take a break today.
that’s okay!
take care,
take good care of you,
as well as nobody has ever done it for you.
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and tomorrow you thank your „today“ for all the love and faith that you have given to your „tomorrow“
and your „tomorrow“ will be loved, and full of faith

like a star

for the universe we are all meaningless dust
but maybe you are the brightest star in someone’s else’s universe

wir kommen auf die Welt frei

wir kommen auf die Welt frei
ohne Weg den wir gehen müssen
ohne Abzweigung die wir nehmen müssen
ohne Last die wir tragen müssen
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doch dann kommen die Erwachsenen, und
wir sollen Ziele erreichen, die andere uns stecken
wir sollen Erwartungen erfüllen, die andere an uns haben
wir sollen Wege gehen, die andere uns auslegen
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und
mit jedem Schritt auf einem Weg, den wir nie gehen wollten
mit jeder Entscheidung auf einer Abzweigung, die wir nie treffen wollten
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stirbt ein Bisschen von uns
und wir werden kleiner
und die Bürde der Last, der verstorbenen Freiheit, die wir mit uns tragen, wird immer größer

my patron

the closest person i knew
the only person in the world you can imagine,
who should be there for me in any case
never saw me
never knew me
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and the moments when this person realize my potentials,
this person allways tried to keep me small
this made me a narcisst,
but even more:⠀
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this taught me
to be my own mentor
to be my own patron

a story of a lovely little wolf pup

this is a story of a lovely little wolf pup
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the pup faces a ton of dangerous situations
but, whenever the pup was in danger
it could be sure
…
that no one will come to protect it
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this small wolf pup was alone.
it never was part of a pack
never knew the protection of loving parents
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there were parents,
but they were to weak and selfish to care.
its parents could not even love or protect themselves,
and much less anyone else.
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in it’s youth
the pup was lonely
and helpless.
but kind and full of hope.
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so the pup grows up
and gets stronger than its parents ever were.
it has big teeth, big pranks and a warm coat
and collects a whole wolf pack arround it
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but it still knows the pain
when nobody cares
when nobody is willing to protect you
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so, you can be sure
when you have a part in its pack
and somebody hurts you
it hurts it
and it will do everything to protect you

ambitions and interests

some people are ambitious
some people are interested
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ambitious people
always have one goal in mind, never lose focus
and always provide performance
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interested people
they do not need to have a goal in mind, they may lose focus, but they always do it for fun and create new things
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ambitious people
can motivate you incredibly good
interested people
can inspire you incredibly good
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… and then there are also people who do not give you anything🤷

We are like ghosts

Our generation. We are like ghosts.
Like spirits that can not disappear from this world, because they still have something to do.
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But, that the world we do not want to leave, is not the here and now.
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The world we do not want to leave, is our childhood because we still want to do so many things.

my life is a dice

There’s no difference between today, and tomorrow. But every morning my brain is rolling a dice how to see the world. So it feels like..
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my life is a dice
tossing only sixes and ones
there is nothing between
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today i’m John Gotti
tomorrow i’m the Hunchback of Notre Dame
i’m nothing between
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today i’m everybodies idol
tomorrow i’m dying alone
i’m rushing between

.. but thankfully today i feel like John Gotti.

i'm surrounded by npc's

i’m surrounded by npc’s
we change words
but we don’t communicate

i’m trying to talk to you
but i only hear scripted answers
programmed by the conventions of society

i’m surrounded by npc’s
everbody’s throwing words at me
but nobody’s listening

nobody is feelin with me
you dont feel my pain
you dont feel pain at all

im surrounded by npc’s

be

be the first
not be the best
be the change
not be the one who changes
be the one who dies living
not be the one whos living dead

sun and stars

sit down
watch the sun disappears behind the horizon
and the stars appear

there are people
making your universe shining bright
but like the sun
they appear and disappear again

and there are people giving you just a little light
but even in the darkest times
and like stars they shine for you
even if you dont see them

i wanna be a survivor

i wanna be a survivor
wandering through an apocalyptic world

i wanna walk through an empty world
where i am the center of society

i wanna fight for survival everyday
the only thing i want to feel is the fear of starving

and i would accept my days of loneliness

familyportrait

look at this picture
imagine you and your whole family
take a walk at this beach
imagine how each one of them would act
did you?

do you see faces of them
of some people you like
of some people you love
and maybe of some people you just can get along with

you know, i did the same
the result of my imagination
you see in the picture

i dont know my destination

i dont know my destination
somewhere between freedom and disorientation
somehow between passion and lack of sence
i dont know what i want
i dont know what im missing
i wanna walk my way
but i dont see my way
so im just lying on it

im a narcist

im a narcist
a view on myself
seeing me sit up on a tower
higher than everybody else

im not able to stand
i just sit there
on a tower carried by
all the people lookin at me

but
if they turn around
if they dont look at me anymore
my tower collapse

and im sittin there
between their legs
unable to stand
and nobody sees me

move mountains

everything is easy
there are these days
you feel like
you could move mountains

everything feels heavy
today it was one of those days
i feel like
im under a mountain

but thats okay
no need to judge me
just go with the flow
even if the flow not exist

and in me

i feel warm outside
and cold inside

i look bored outside
and whiny inside

get me out here
and some cozy stuff to wrap in

let me feel the sun on my skin
and in my laugh

your own universe

youre the designer of your own universe

facts are neutral
you can have good days
you can have bad days
without changing the facts

perspectives are individual
you can change bad weeks
to good weeks
by changing the perspective

facts are temporary
you can change bad years
to good years
by overthrowing the facts!

window of my eyes

i go for walks
i do hikes
i climb mountains

all in my head
i miss the moment
because I’m all in my head

i’m trapped
in the world in my head
get me out of here

i wanna live the moment
not only see the moment
thru the window of my eyes

time for necessaries

modern humans got too much time
too much time for too many thoughts
too much time for non essential things
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the reason why we love to travel is
everything makes sense again
everything we do when we travel is necessary
and we doing things all the time
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no time for unnecessary thought
no time for unnecessary things

You are less, than the Picture You were

I reach my Hands,
not for You
For a Picture of you,
from a Person you never were

I felt in love with this Person
the Person you’ve allways tried to be
I loved this Person,
the Person you never were

And now I see
the Person you’ve allways tried to be
and the Person I see
you will never be

This person you were,
when you tried to be like me
Was the best Person,
you are able to be

find the one

find one to watch the moon and the stars
find one to jump naked in a river with you
find one to argue in the middle of the night and cry till the morning sun
find one climbing with you over fences
find one running with you through the rain
find one where every moment feels like a story

Inner Fire

there is a fire in each one of us
and in the darkest hours
there are short moments
in which this fire is deep inside
lets you shine so brightly
that for a brief moment
you light your own way
back into the light

i wish i could feel the joy of the moment

i wish i could feel the soft breeze of wind
i wish i could feel the gras touch my hands
i wish i could go wherever the wind takes me

enjoy the moment of carefreeless
enjoy the moment of thoughtlessness
someday you will miss them painfully

just for the short moments

the moments in which time stands still
just for a short moment

i’m running from one to the next
just for the short moments

hoping that the gears in my head will stop
just for a short moment

searching, running, fighting for peace
just for a short moment

mental carousel

mental carousel
.
it is getting light
and it’s getting dark
.
world is passing in front of your eyes
your head goes around in circles
.
have no fear
but dont stay too long
.
you wont find out
or fall into darkness
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use the movement
jump into the light
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mental carousel

climbing and climbing

dont worry
youre climbing and climbing

and after the dungeon where the air you breathe
only contains tasks, barriers and everday life

you scale a montain where the air you breathe
doesnt exist

and you die
because you need oxygen

post scriptum:
for every image in which your extremities are cut off, you lose them in a parallel universe

post post scriptum:
and something with freedom, personal development, goodvibes and stuff

a long way without destination

it felt long
the way on beach to the sea

when you lay down in the sand
look up in the sky
feel the wind brushing your skin with sand grains
and you watch the gras gets whipped by the wind
its hard to stand up and tie your shoes

but i did it
i stood up
tied my shoes
did one step
and the next step
and feel my feet are sinking in the sand

pull my boat
step by step
into the sea
and feel my feet are sinking in the sand

and i did it
i pulled my boat in the sea
and now im sitting here
in my boat

i lie on the rocking wood
look up in the sky
feel the wind brush my skin with small drops of seawater
and i watch the sea gets whipped by the wind

dont know where i am
dont know in which direction the wind carries me

Donatella - Milano Vibes 01

insecurity

we wait
we wait for decisions

decisions we cannot control
decisions we cannot influence

the harder we try
the more we lose

so we wait
and gettin crazy

in
insecurity

Stars and Clouds

its dark
and im walking through the park

im alone
lookin up in the sky

seeing grey clouds
and black sky

stars are shining
through the clouds

far away from each other
and sorrounded by clouds

each of them speacial
each of them one of a kind

never reaching each other
in middle of clouds

but ever shining bright
through the night

Picture of...

I felt in love with this Picture,
the Picture you drawed of you

Im was in Love with this Person,
but this Person never was you

Im in love in this Picture,
but this picture doesn’t show you

A Diamond and A Polished Glass

A Diamond found it in the dust
It was crystal clear

A Diamond thought A Diamond could help to grind it
It polished itself

A Diamond carried it into the light
It was shining bright

A Diamond treated it like a Diamond
It acted like a Diamond

An erathquake
happened

An earthquake
buried both deep in the earth

An earthquake
buried both deep in the dirt

A Diamond keeps the shape
It gets cracks

A Diamond stays pure
It gets dirt in the cracks

A Diamond can not break
It does

A Diamond is still a Diamond

Hannah and Friends – Wake Up Call 02

A golden Sky above the city.

You gonna meet some friends.

But you aren’t stressed.

You take a walk through the city to your destination.

Everywhere voices and people on the streets.

The smell of barbeque and beer is in the air.

Dark houses between bright streets looking like the scales of a firelizard.

Take a trip to cologne.

Take a trip to my airbnb 😀

Relax & Sunshine Oasis – Im Herzen des Stadtlebens https://www.airbnb.de/rooms/22766763

Brutus

admiring you
supporting you in any case

going to the next to you
in case of a better case

wanna be like you
doing everything for you

murdering you
for a small window of luck

longterm good for you
killing you in one moment

Daphne - Home 01

Never trust somebody living in loneliness
Because I can’t hold on when I’m stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I’m lost within
Never put on a daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself

Hard Day

there are days and im feelin good
there are weeks and im feelin good

im feelin good to be honest
im feelin good by never overplaying

this day is cruel
this week is cruel

no need to be cold
no need to fake coolness

no thought about me
will effect my progress

none of my thoughts
looking back

step by step
i veer away

Yvonne Fisah Sunsetghetto 04

the rain begins with a single drop

the day begins with the first light beam

every journey you take begins with the first step

everything you have become started with a single thought

All people leave

There are the few
There is the one

For the few there is only one
Thinking about

For the one there is only one
Thinking about

themselves
and you

The few are gone
Only staying

the one

Stepping down the Rabbit Hole

the horizon bright
my way dark

above freedom
below scare and monsters

above my mind
below my heart

my shadows pull me down
they cant

my way down
my choice

facing all my demons
breaking all the chains

a long way
after all

above freedom
below peace

Okulele Ending Theme

I feel no anger
I feel no sympathy

Sure, there is sadness
No sadness for leaving my life
Sadness not to know who have been in my life

This is not a favor
This is just the next number in the series

lisa tipsy efeld 09

colorful dots in the dark

over the city

people yelling

cant sleep

late night blues

luhki foggy future 04

Facing life is like
standing in front of a wall of smog full of problems
You – to small. Smog – to big.
Need more than a lifetime to solve all this

Sometimes its more easy
to see life as a sea of fog full of opportunities
You – to small. Sea – to big.
Not all lifetimes together would be able to explore the whole sea

But..
You will never get to the point where there is nothing left to do